Saturday, December 26, 2009

So what do you do...

... when you seem to be enjoying everything life is giving you, but that one thing you want so desperately is no where in sight?
... when people close to you are happy and you are happy for them, but you just want to shut yourself up in a room and never come out?
... when your innate sense to protect yourself makes you laugh on the outside, when you would rather just cry?
... when the fine line between solitude and loneliness fades ever so often?
... when a nice honest-to-God tantrum can probably set things right?
... when little failures seem huge and thoughts spin out of control?
... when you know that your troubles are not troubles at all, but the tears won't stop?
... when you sleep half the day away, and the only regret you have when you wake up is that you had to wake up?
... when you can't find words to express yourself and any attempt to do so only makes a mockery of you?
... when you know you are being petty and pathetic, but you can't find a way out of that vicious circle of thoughts?
... when you realise that no one can probably feel what you're feeling and you know that you are now old enough to figure it out by yourself... but can't?